Tuesday, November 30, 2010


We are just waiting now to find out what they will do.

They hold the cards.  We built the house, built the family.  Now we wait.

Don't do what we did.  Sign papers.  Don't assume that you will outlast people.  You might not.

So here I sit.  I don't own a thing now.  My fate is in their hands and I feel I am not on the jelly side of the bread.

Fucking scary.

I try to always be glass half full type of girl, but now not sure if it is a glass of lemonade or salt water.

Just let me know so I can move on.  Can't handle much more.

Asked Bri who she wanted to live with in case anything happened to me.  She said Aloree, in this house.  So if anything does happen, that is what it will be.

Think I need to armor up, or I will lose.  Need to fight.  Can't melt now.